Well, I am trying to psych myself up for running again. I have run so rarely since Dec. I really can't even say I have been running. I haven't.
So, time to kick my backside and get moving again.
Ugh...I don't want to!!!
UPDATE: 10/05-- We are pregnant again and so I will not run the half.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Friday, June 25, 2010
Lost
Today I ran....
It was not health that sent me out.
It was not sport that drove me then.
Anger sent me to the streets.
Anger at God
Anger at myself
Anger at the world
Pure anger.
Grief sent me down the road.
Grief for my baby.
Grief for myself.
Pure grief.
Blinded with the pain of losing another child...this time at 16 weeks.
We went to the doctor and there was no heartbeat at 12 weeks. Clay went off to OK, while I stayed home. We were both in such agreement that this was simply a test and God would raise our child back to life. We had been studying Mary and Zachariah's responses to the angel's news. One stood in faith-sight unseen, the other wanted a sign-then believed. For three weeks, on my own I stood on God's word. For three weeks, "did not consider the deadness of [my] womb" but believed in LIFE.
Today we got the report that the baby continued to measure 11 weeks...no heartbeat.
It was 101* today but I did not care. I was outrunning demons, outrunning reports, outrunning myself, my emotions, my dead womb. I couldn't do anything more to "hurt" this child and so I ran to spend my energy. I ran to spend my anger. I ran to avoid my grief.
When I reached the end of my rope, I RAN.
UPDATE: The next day, June 26th, 2010 I delivered a perfectly formed little boy. We named him Wyatt Alexander.
Sunday, December 6, 2009
7 mile trail run
I did Run the Rock today.... and at 8 weeks pregnant.
We made horrible time BUT considering that is rained and 500 runners created about 6 inches of mud and slime for the whole 7 miles, I say we did SPECTACULAR!!!!!!!!!
Although it took me 3 days to warm up after that!! HAHA.
It was probably THE best race I have ever done!!! I wanna do it again next year.... UPDATE: 12/13- We lost our little one. While I do not attribute it to the running, it was on this run that I told my sister and running partner.
We made horrible time BUT considering that is rained and 500 runners created about 6 inches of mud and slime for the whole 7 miles, I say we did SPECTACULAR!!!!!!!!!
Although it took me 3 days to warm up after that!! HAHA.
It was probably THE best race I have ever done!!! I wanna do it again next year.... UPDATE: 12/13- We lost our little one. While I do not attribute it to the running, it was on this run that I told my sister and running partner.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Coming and Going....
Well, I do not have splits or stats to report but I have been running!!
I average 2-3 times a week with 1-2 times a week cross training and weights. So, on average... I am getting 4 days that I am actually doing something.
My runs consist of 3-5miles, depending on the day. I have been running with a friend on Wednesday that adds between 1-2 miles to our 3 mile trot. I call it is trot because we are in no way striving to set PR or even come close. No, this is a time to simply enjoy the scenery and each other's company. I am loving it. There is no pressure, no worries, just us girls and the road.
I am hoping to run the 7 mile trail run in Dec. So, it is needed that I start running more competitively but for now, I have enjoyed just running. period. no pretense, no training schedule, nothing. just jogging along and enjoying the journey.
I average 2-3 times a week with 1-2 times a week cross training and weights. So, on average... I am getting 4 days that I am actually doing something.
My runs consist of 3-5miles, depending on the day. I have been running with a friend on Wednesday that adds between 1-2 miles to our 3 mile trot. I call it is trot because we are in no way striving to set PR or even come close. No, this is a time to simply enjoy the scenery and each other's company. I am loving it. There is no pressure, no worries, just us girls and the road.
I am hoping to run the 7 mile trail run in Dec. So, it is needed that I start running more competitively but for now, I have enjoyed just running. period. no pretense, no training schedule, nothing. just jogging along and enjoying the journey.
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
uh, just joking!
I was planning on doing the Rambling Rose- tri. Then I went to register and it was $150 for a charity spot.
So, while the swimming and spin classes were nice and I enjoyed both, when I wasn't hyperventilating.... it is back to running and eliptical.... maybe I will still do the bike sometimes.
So, while the swimming and spin classes were nice and I enjoyed both, when I wasn't hyperventilating.... it is back to running and eliptical.... maybe I will still do the bike sometimes.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Friday, August 7, 2009
switching gears...
I am SOOOOO good at starting things and then letting "stuff" get in the way of continuing. I have been running, on average twice a week. My mileage is pretty weak
(2-3 miles) but recently (last week) I decided to start training for a mini-triathlon, which includes a 2 mi. run/250m swim/ 12 mi. bike. So, this week I have done an hour long spinning class on T and Th. Today, I decided to try my body at swimming. I swam 275 ft (need to convert that to meters still) in 20 minutes....yes, I know it is SLOW.... but at least I was able to do it!! Now I need to get faster and combine it with other activities (a run and/or bike). Ah.... life is always moving, yes?
(2-3 miles) but recently (last week) I decided to start training for a mini-triathlon, which includes a 2 mi. run/250m swim/ 12 mi. bike. So, this week I have done an hour long spinning class on T and Th. Today, I decided to try my body at swimming. I swam 275 ft (need to convert that to meters still) in 20 minutes....yes, I know it is SLOW.... but at least I was able to do it!! Now I need to get faster and combine it with other activities (a run and/or bike). Ah.... life is always moving, yes?
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